Ranting Stick man

dumb fag

2010-01-11T07:11:00.000-08:00

And of course. Because im so dumb.
I onli know how to create a sub blog from blogger =_=

i have to..

yeh.

get a new blog up from blogger..

moving on.

2009-10-27T17:18:00.000-07:00

96th post. And im ending it here.

i have moved to here

and here (People who cant handle the truth please dun go there.)

Wad if.

2009-10-20T09:23:00.001-07:00

In life.

What if does not exist.

It is a phrase used for self comforting.

Which will end up hurting you.

So many what if i wanted to ask.

But i realized.

Even if i do get the result i wanted.

It will eventually fail on me.

I feel fail.

I feel like a failure.

and i repeat the same line again.

I've been thru it before,

I can do it again.

but i feel out of place.

i feel so extra.

i've lost the sense of belonging again.

...

2009-10-14T06:39:00.000-07:00

说了，没人听。
问了，每人答。

说了什么
问了什么
没人听得到。

渐渐的..脱离了大家。
突然，感觉好遥远。
我的存在渐渐消失。

once upon a time, im off today and theres chocolate

2009-09-23T11:00:00.000-07:00

once upon a time,
shit happen.
ppl fought.
some died.
some survive.
life moves on.

ANYWAY,
im off work the today :D
woots!
chocolates ~~

wut?

2009-09-17T07:49:00.000-07:00

After all you've say and done,
i had already given up.
now u come back,
with one line,
and expect to get away with it?

i dun think so 8DD

I'd sincerely thank you for removing the
bottleneck for the grown of my wisdom. :o
you having me thrown out of comfort zone,
had me learn alot the past few months.

I'd really say thank you very much :D
but I've already decided that you aint getting away from this shit,
and i'll still make you suffer 8DDD

prepare for hell!!!>D

wow ..

2009-09-06T08:09:00.000-07:00

oh wow..
Its been such a long time since i see you..
you've..
change so much..
My guess is you prolly dun even recognize me..
but for me,
one look is enuff to recognize you..

how have you been?
I've missed you so much..
miss the days we have ..
you've changed so much already..
Hows studies going along..
so many questions ..
but i just couldn't open my mouth and ask..

oh well..
you'll definitely have a better life with him :)
and as i expected! long hair indeed look better on you! :D
hope to see you ard soon~
again :)

why?

2009-09-06T07:22:00.000-07:00

cos its bothersome,
and pain in the ass!
There's way more interesting stuff in life
rather den that :D

u can stay there all you want~
I'm out to enjoy my life dude! :D

Huh?

2009-09-05T12:47:00.000-07:00

really,
you wan to tell me..
exactly wad you wan to say,
and wad you wan to prove?
Cause frankly speaking,
i cant be bothered to think about it ._.

Oh well~~
nice afternoon out in the urban hike in the scary car park =w=
nice hdd that holds all my important data-s,
nice friends who tricked me into watching some crappy movie =w=
and I think,
i might just quit jubeat
and be a gundam pilot
http://www.gametrailers.com/user-movie/gundam-arcade-pod-gameplay/209086

On a side note,
i posted the previous post on the wrong blog..
LOL =w=

Brain Booster

2009-09-01T06:25:00.000-07:00

Heres some brain booster,
hope it helps to
think abit more faster?
:)

Piece of mind

2009-08-31T08:07:00.000-07:00

Okay champion.
You want a piece of my mind?
Heres it.

There is no ultimate correct or right answer to any question.
Nobody is absolutely correct at anything.
It is just a standard.
If you can convince half the earth's population into thinking
that your actions are correct,
That already means u are 50% right.

its basic common sense
that 1 is 1, and not 2.
and 1+1 = 2.

So,
Please go convince the remain 50% population, minus me
or simply just shut the fuck up,
and move it.

P.S,
Its kinda interesting to read my old diary :D

Life

2009-08-29T17:49:00.000-07:00

sometimes in life,
you don need God to be tell you wads right and whats wrong.
All you need is jus to make up your mind
and stick to it, till the end.
Who are the others to judge you?
As long u do your things rite,
theres nothing to fear.

P.s. I'm not refering to myself as God in this context.

o.o

2009-08-19T07:36:00.000-07:00

Mr Yap!

2009-08-18T09:25:00.000-07:00

Lol wtf!!
why u all become machiam Mr Yap~!
epic win sia~!

ok, time for slp.
i have work tmr.

degree 0

2009-08-16T09:09:00.000-07:00

yea yea,
u tired and sick.
like i very song lidda ar.
u tired, i lao sai lo.
fair bo?

since u so tired den dun do lo.
go back to point 0 lo.
since i can clap with one hand.

one hand ftw~!!

小明

2009-08-15T21:32:00.000-07:00

某某天，小明一伙人把小新给杀了。
一年后，一起行凶的人
决定把小明当替死鬼。
要报警抓小明。
可是小明决定自己承担。
好伟大啊~！！

小明好可怜啊~！！

woots!!

2009-08-15T10:16:00.000-07:00

woots!!

today photosuut,
met up with kyouya's senior and her friends.
AND.
we have finally found,
our long lost ancestor!!
woots!!
madam red ancestor 8DD
cool hur!! <3<3
and we have added another family member~!
half son, half daughter
so is son or daughter @.@
i wan a daughter~
afterall, i like xmm 8DDD
woots!!!

>>Ragster, stand too long , leg will pain one.
sit down better.

Change

2009-08-14T18:30:00.000-07:00

with the new haircut,
its time for change.
time to take my stand.
I'm taking my stand,
even if it meant costing my life.

so,
you buey song,
either come confront me, or and go away.
Im not interested in bits and bytes. :)

you

2009-08-14T06:46:00.000-07:00

You,
make up your mind already.
Then come and talk to me.
Don't waste yours and my time.
seriously.

and on top of it.
my answer is still no.

lol

2009-08-14T03:11:00.000-07:00

lol, wtf

woots!!

2009-08-13T20:09:00.000-07:00

woots!!
eggs for breakfast.

but,

like feel like sao sai lei..
spoilt liao ar?

1 year~~

2009-08-13T08:32:00.001-07:00

1 year~~

is all it takes~~

all it takes is 1 year~~

woots~!!

xmas coming soon

understood

2009-08-13T05:17:00.000-07:00

Understood.
If thats the case,
I know wad has to be done.

:)

Decided!!

2009-08-12T22:22:00.001-07:00

he has made up his mind!!

alot of things

2009-08-12T09:41:00.000-07:00

i have alot of thigns going thru my mind at the moment,
Please leave me alone. ok?

Long post

2009-08-12T07:59:00.000-07:00

Its gonna be long. so.
be prepared when u start reading this.
and.
Read carefully, and properly.

______________________________

As some have know,
that i've "join" sgcafe for almost a year already.
(yea, fucking shit hell of a year)
and have befriend several peoples.
which, i'd not say i've regret or anything,
but oh well.

I'll not say that,
Im not a very nice person to begin with.
Im a VERY INTROVERT person,
thus explaining the difference in my personality
before and after knowing me.
I dun do especially nice things to people,
unless theres a reason.
I do get harsh at things, but u know i'm onli joking ard.
I may not always mean wad i always say,
but this time.
Im sick and tired of all this shit.

first clique of people
was fun, enjoyable, wadever it is,
WHILE IT LASTED.
i shall not point finger or wadever.
but then again.
It started to get on my nerve with all the outcast shit and wad so ever.
and i guess thats the time
i start to distance from them.
unknowingly,
i have no idea why,
myself.

and then,
i tot things have gotten better,
after i get to know another group of people.
which, sort of forms the 2nd clique.
And its, like the previous,
fun, enjoyable, wadever it is,
WHILE IT LASTED.
and then shit came in.
shits.
loads of them.
can someone explain to me how it even happened?
I have absolutely no idea how it started, and why it became like this.
I'd wanted this clique to stay together,
but then again..
too much shit happened..
that it wun resolve everyone decide to this?
oh well.
like ah pek say
people change.

I've really treated all you as a friend,
which is why im even care to be so bothered and irritated
so, thus.
I will leave a message to each of you.

__________________________________

To, Mr Fucking, elite champion.
Hi there Mr Elite.
I do not like you. i dun like the way u do things.
I dont like people coming in all of a sudden,
treating others like minors and start bossing ard.
You may be elite, but that does not give u right over things.

To, Mr/s
Yes, a friend. I did stand by you when the shit happened,
its not because i had any favour in you or anything.
but i jus couldnt stand her attitude. But i realli want to say this.
Please. think carefully before acting can? sometimes, the things
u do realli is so dumb and stupid that it even piss me off. You
have attitude problem, like seriously. Please learn to grow up,
and be a little more mature?

To, Mr
Hi Friend. i mean.
EX FRIEND.
I'd treat you nice, you do shit to me.
I get stabbed.
dumped.
outcasted.
And some had suggested you being the mastermind of all this.
But i'd choose to think otherwise.
But than again. wadever shit la.
since u hate to see me that much,
i'd jus take my leave.
as simple as that.
dun come to me and pretend to be some nice guy,
and start stabbing me in my back

To, Ms
I felt distant to you.
We used to be "good" friend.
oh wait. was it "good"? or "friend"?
oh well, someone came along and replace me.
woots. congrats on your new discovery.

To, Ms
At times, i dont understand the things going on in your head. you
complain to me abt shit. I explain to you, but you dun listen. I
helped, but you dun seem to appreciate me. But nvm. But can you at
least give me some respect as a person?sometimes, it jus seem to
me that im jus random person, asking for your favour. but since
you are so free, so you will do it for me.

To, Ms
I do not know u that well either. Thus im able to understand if my
presences irkes you. But im not a evil person. I dun do shit to people.

To, Mr
You've change too much. so much.The respect that i have for you,
7months ago. have all been down into the drain. you stop talking,
disappearing. Den do things u like, do shit u like. =__=

To, Ms
I dunno wad to say to you. like seriously. I do treated you as a
friend. but at times, it jus feels like you jus treat me like a
transparent object.oh wait. transparent asshole. I dun get the
feeling that im treated like a friend. sinces im not able to give
you as much and someone else can give. since im not as GOOD as
some particular person.

To, Ms
I, seriously. have no idea wad to say abt you.
I'd tot you were one of the more mature person.
But then,
actions shows otherwise.
And im.
realli disappointed

_______________________________________

seriously,
if you ask me.
I have no idea wad the purpose of this post either.
Wad I jus want to say is.
I treasure all of you as my friend.
or rather.
Treasured.
but too much have happened.
and im sick and tired of all this shit.
so.
fuck off.
seriously.

my fault

2009-08-12T00:21:00.001-07:00

ya,

everything my fault.

everything also i wrong.

you all jus leave and ownself happy family lo.

kthxbai

pain

2009-08-09T05:25:00.000-07:00

Why does it hurt me,
so so much,
my heart aches,
i cried,
the pain is killing me.
why..

2009-08-08T13:40:00.000-07:00

after a long day out,
i ended up..
feeling up..
so empty.. so empty..
listening to songs which brings me to tears..
so much shit in my life,
and more shit coming..
when will things ever change for a better..
wad ever did i ever do
to deserve this kind of treatment from all of you?

oh wait,
it isnt me.
Its someone else,
someone else have came can take over me,
im jus a simple replacable object,
so "friend" is jus a temp position u've given to me,
and someone else is better,
so you'll jus move ahead hur?

or, since some particular person,
is able to give you all the attentions you need,
and thus my presence is voided,
to such a point where im JUS SOMEBODY.
oh wait, im jus a asshole,
im transparent.
you don see me.

or, something which you did not voice out at all,
den decide that im not worth a friend,
and you can even look right thru me like a glass?

OR, JUST FUCKING BECUS OF YOUR FREAKING CHILDISHNESS,
YOU START STABBING BEHIND ME,
AND MAKING MY "FRIENDS" TO IGNORE ME,
(or mayb they dun even treat me as friend?)
AND FOR HEAVEN'S SAKE,
JUST BECAUSE YOU'RE YOUNGER,
DUN GIVE YOU FREAKING SHIT THAT
ITS ONLY NATURAL THAT YOU ARE CHILDISH.
JUST FUCKING GROW UP, WILL YOU?

or be like some blardy elite,
thats decides to start stabbing people all over the place?
i seriously dun care,
u dun try and pull any shit at me.
cos i'd tell you this.
READ THIS
i dun care abt ath, if u piss me off much,
i'll realli jus punch u in the face,
or prolly kill you.

or starts to act all elite suddenly,
ignoring other people,
making your own decision and ask, can?
since u farking make ur mind alrdy,
why you even bother to ask?

or stab me all over the place,
saying how childish and shit abt me.
like, seriously. I dun have alot of friends.
and i'd rather people who realli treat me as friend.
if you realli find me such a pain,
please jus,
stay away, ok?
oh wait.
you're alrdy doing it.
good.
and stay that way.
I have no wish to see you.
or anything shit related to you.
so,
all you champions,
please.
reflect on wad you have done.
like seriously.
i personally dun find myself a hard person to befriend
i mayb be harsh and dumb at times,
but i'll still get things done and be serious when i need.

but,
i guess it doesnt make a difference to any of them..
since my existence only take up
0.000001% of their life..
oh well,
kthxbai.
Please take note of how i talk

wtf..

2009-08-06T08:35:00.000-07:00

so now,
u start mixing with the other bunch
and start avoiding me.
so i guess,
that makes me the bad guy hur?
wad did i even do in the first place?
He's the one who started all this shit,
and now,
even you are going to stand against me?
let me repeat this to you.
I dont care what you think, or what you say.
Even if every single one of you want to leave me.
i dun freaking give a shit abt it.
I have way important things to care abt.
if you wan to leave,
jus leave and dun ever talk to me again.

iPhone

2009-07-31T19:44:00.000-07:00

me:Hi, i would like to buy iPhone
salesman:Sorry sir, you kennot buy
me:Huh? why kennot buy?
salesman:Cos you not Chio bu
me:Huh? why not Chio bu kennot buy
Salesman:Cos iPhone is chio bu phone, you not Chio bu kennot buy
me:Huh??? I tot is use iPhone liao den will become Chio bu?
Salesman:No lor, is kennot sell to non Chio bu. U next month come back try again lo
me: .______.????

anyway,
i wasnt able to buy the chio bu phone ytd,
kinda disappointed thou~
but also good :D
more spare cash flow~~~

SO..

2009-07-31T19:41:00.000-07:00

SO after all this,
i becomes the bad guy?
hur hur..
interesting..
fine by me.
I'll jus finish up with what i started
and move on.

at least i'll have 50% chances of regaining my freedom,
and find new friends (:

thanks for the goods and shits,
and all the best!

fever

2009-07-28T20:25:00.000-07:00

Im.. sicked,
with 39 degree fever,
since monday night,
and i've realli miss my mum..
how she always cared for me when im sick,
and i realli miss her..

i don wanna

2009-07-26T08:35:00.000-07:00

I shudnt be thinking so much of it..
but then again,
how could i not think..
if you ask me,
yes.
I understand how stupid it is
and how uncomprehenable abt all this thing.
but then again,
i've all along know, how different we are.
how far apart we stand,
and how insignificant i am,
to you, or any one.

Oh well,
i shall use it,
as a motivation
to work even harder.

~~私はあくまで執事ですから~~

私は神ちゃんでイモーたまごですから

does it matter?

2009-07-23T23:18:00.000-07:00

sometimes i really wonder,
does it even, wad other people thinks?
If you have already make up ur mind,
why do you even ask for permission?
after all, its ur life.
what i say and do can only do his much.
i'd pretty much think you wun even listen at all (:
ANYWAY,
im not even anyone to you,
thus i'll have to say
"its up to you"

hmm

2009-07-22T09:27:00.000-07:00

lemme think..
nothing much going on..
wanted to go joggin,
but my toe injured..
mayb i shud go see a doctor soon =__=
or i'll become naruto's brother
9 toes =w=

anyway...
i'm still in control, yeah?
so chill (:

shud it? oh wait, nvm

2009-07-20T09:32:00.000-07:00

Do i have to constantly remind you?
every single thing i say?
oh wait.
Its okies.
It doesnt matter anyway.
since none of you are bothered anyway
i'd better off saving the energy for someone else who appreciate. (:

so heres the middle finger
_|_
and yeah (:
life goes on~

so?

2009-07-19T09:38:00.000-07:00

As much as i know that
things wun be smooth sailing.
Things might not even work out the way i want it to.

But all i could do nao,
is to work hard at my goals.
(:

and i want to keep up with
how im progessing.
i AM a HAPPY person (:

final decision

2009-07-17T09:47:00.000-07:00

I've decided.
this is getting no where.
I decide to give it all up
and work my way back up from the beginning.
and to all the shit storm that had happened up till before the chalet,
I do not wish to comment
and have anything to do with me.
You dun offend me, i dun offend you. friend.
u step on my toe,
i make sure u nv walk again (:

on the bright side,
things have been going on quite well for myself,
at least for the past 4 days? (:

2009-07-15T08:45:00.000-07:00

theres like ..
a million things going on in my mind at the same time..
i dun wanna get bothered by all this shit,
but thanks to brain of mine,
i cant stop.

everything in my life get messed up.
i start taking crap photos,
people start ignoring me
shit get way out of control

我没有要求过任何事情，
我只想好好的过日子。

算了。

既然你都这样了，
我还能怎样？
我有自知之明。
即使我不要，也会有大把人抢着去。
既然别人比较好，
那你就去找别人吧.

再见了。

tired

2009-07-14T09:29:00.000-07:00

im really really
really
tired..
theres..
so so much that i dun wanna let go off..

10 reason you fail

2009-07-13T20:50:00.000-07:00

was talking to someone a few days back,
abt why we are still single

1.Not handsome
2.Not Rich enuff
3.Too fat
4.Dun have special hidden talent
And basically the rest is jus use to pinpoint
how i look and stuff lidda =w=

_________________________________

mayb i think its time to stop being a joker.
Cause people stop listening to me and take everything i say as a joke

_________________________________

突然间，我好害怕失去你。
如果有一天，你离我而去
我该怎么办。。

moral of the story

2009-07-08T10:56:00.000-07:00

Do Not Assume.

Cos you'll be making a Ass out of U and Me

as quoted from my Secondary school EMath teacher, Mr Chew

sorry

2009-07-08T08:41:00.000-07:00

If that is truely how far
u stand as a friend.
Im really to say that
I've really treated u as a friend,
you jus aint worth my time and effort.

look, read all you want.

2009-07-08T07:43:00.001-07:00

You wan to see it so badly rite?
go ahead
see it,
read it,
and burn it into ur brain.
_|_
:)

..

2009-07-07T09:11:00.000-07:00

When you know..
time is up..
you will
automatically..
disappear
into the mist..
your existence ..
is..
no longer needed..

how many times?

2009-07-02T05:56:00.001-07:00

exactly.. how many time have it happened?
since when?
last year?
first it starts with her,
then its him,
then you,
and it loops all over again
and it reach a point where i got so pissed to bother any more.
it was okie,
and along came another grp of people,
whom drifted off into their own world of elitism
I couldnt have bothered less,
but it really pisses me off.
If you dont mean what you say,
please jus dont even let the words come out of your mouth.
That aside,
and now you just have to do things to piss every single person off.
CAN YOU FREAKING EVEN THINK PROPERLY
BEFORE YOU SAY OR DO ANYTHING?
FUCK,
I DONT WAN TO BE BOTHERED ANYMORE
=_=

What the fuck is wrong?

2009-06-24T21:06:00.000-07:00

Yes, obviously im still displease with wad happened last night.
what the fuck is wrong with the picture in the first place?
Resize liao so small, how to see
and im on 1024X768 resolution =_=

damn..

2009-06-24T18:45:00.000-07:00

Personality Disorder Test

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I knew it was bad,
but i din expect it to be this bad >_>

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	High
Schizoid:	Moderate
Schizotypal:	High
Antisocial:	Moderate
Borderline:	Very High
Histrionic:	Very High
Narcissistic:	High
Avoidant:	Very High
Dependent:	Very High
Obsessive-Compulsive:	High
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.________________.l|l

2009-06-24T09:54:00.000-07:00

A conversation Jus mins agao

me: Im getting sick of this shit alrdy
her: Den why u still doing this?
me: huh? do wad
her: Since they ain taking you seriously, why u still bother abt them?
me: eh.. dunno lei..
her: don be stupid la
her: they dont wan listen, u get agitated for wad?
me: ..
her: everytime lidda, worth it meh?
me: i know.. but..
me: i dunno lei..
her: -_-l|l

and she went offline..

Life's too short for all this shit,
since it does not bother me,
i will NOT BOTHER
you can jolly welly kiss my ass.
Im sick of tired of all these shit alrdy.
PLEASE LEAVE ME ALONE.
_|_ _|_ _|_

sucks

2009-06-24T09:20:00.000-07:00

life sucks,
you sucks,
wads new?

on the brighter side,,
transformers out,
mascot parade in 2 days,
rented lense,

arrghh..
du lan.

fuck

我也不知道

2009-06-14T09:45:00.000-07:00

是喜欢？
是爱情？
我自己也搞不清楚。。
我只知道，
她在我心里，已经拥有了一个地位，
让我自己无法自拔的
去想她，
想要关心她，
想要爱护她。
我只是知道，
这感觉，就相似老爸会有的心情。
害怕，担心，她爱上别人。
自己最爱的人，
爱上了别人，你又担心她，
哎呀！好复杂的心情>.<

irritated

2009-06-11T09:49:00.000-07:00

even thou im no emo-ing, somemore,
im still very irritated.
somehow..

oh well.
2 down, more to go
k-on! - miranda
CCS - ningx and peeps =w=

4 more(?) to go
emo loli - ningg and peeps D:
deathnote - kaiyyyyy,unclepooh
semi vk/loli(?) - miranda, mystic,dol
kuroshitsuji - laopo & son

blood boild!

2009-06-10T09:16:00.000-07:00

wads with this tingling of
blood boiling sensation?
i dunno.
i dun quite get it either,
i dun wan to brood over it either
so i shall move on! and slp~!!

1 down, more to go
k-on! - miranda

5 more(?) to go (i tink still got more? >_>)
emo loli - ningg and peeps D:
deathnote - kaiyyyyy,unclepooh
CCS - ningx and peeps =w=
semi vk/loli(?) - miranda, mystic,dol
kuroshitsuji - laopo & son

over!

2009-06-09T09:57:00.000-07:00

it will be all over
once i wake from sleep.
i shall stand up,
and move on with my life.

Its time to wake up.

i promise

2009-06-09T03:31:00.000-07:00

I promise i'll be a better man,
give me a chance.
Please..

at least let me last in my emo life on my way home.
I promise i'll get over with it
and move on..
once i reach home.

please..

teary eyes

2009-06-08T08:28:00.000-07:00

Just becus i know,
doesnt necessarily mean i could do it.
Who doesnt know that murder is a crime?
why does it still happen?
Its not like i enjoy being emo
but its jus all these things that have happened..
thats starts to make me wonder..
wad am i even doing here..
there seem to be no more direction in my life anymore
everydays is jus work,
work and more work.
Thou i get to take a break on weekend
having shoot..
but..
things nv fail to turn against me.
time and again,
little things will pop up and remind me of the stupid shitty things
that keep occuring in my life
how it nv fail to upset me..
i could stand along the corridor for 1 mins
close my eyes, and all the crap flashing thru my mind..
i hate my brain..
i hate my life ..
i hate me

the worse song ever

2009-06-07T08:37:00.000-07:00

The more u get to know a person
the more,
you realize how different we really are.
How far apart we really stands.
When realizing the gap,
you start to fear the gap from widening,
and worry things will get worse..
Im so tired already..
i couldnt be bothered anymore..
the numbers of failure in my life
have accumlated to so such a extend where
i no long have any confidence in myself.

i may be laughin and joking on the outside,
but no one really knows wads going on in my mind.
theres so many thing caught up in my mind that
i could easily slum into emoness once i start to stone..

no pain no gain,
but theres onli pain and no gain for me.
i so tired,
i so long for all this to be over,
but, i had so much regrets in my life,
but..
i guess i wun have any of the chances to go backwards
and change..
I want to cry,
but theres no tears..
I want to die,
but i dont dare..
im a total failure..

i hate my life..

2009-06-06T10:19:00.001-07:00

recently, i have stop doing things which i'll usually do.

Walking down the streets,
its usually normal for guys to be looking ard at girls walking pass
(not in a perverted POV =_=)
but sometime it'll come to a point
where.. i'll simply just look away.
why?
its makes me emo.
it starts to remind me of how shitty things has been going thru in my life
how things have already fail on me
how i nv succeed
or achieve anything in my life.

see-ing how quickly,
people ard me are changing.
It really punch down fear deep into my heart..
someone, whom i really wanted to be close to
yet changing so quickly
that i might not even be able to recognize her..
and i dun want this to happen..
but wad could i do..
all that comes from me are jus words,
which prolly dun even mean a thing to you,
and i feel so worthless..

rawrs!

2009-06-03T02:48:00.000-07:00

meh leg hurts. meh hand hurts,
meh stomach hurts, meh whole body hurts..feel like dying nao.. ;A;

dun like

2009-05-31T10:19:00.001-07:00

sometimes,
i dont like the way u say things.
i felt
intruded
under-looked
worthless

even thou its jus one side of the crap,
all on my own.
I guess that prolly the reason why i don deserve anything..

I aint wad i tot i am. or wad i said i am.

2009-05-31T09:26:00.000-07:00

I've reach the conclusion,
that i ain realli the person
who i claim to be.
neither the person i tot i am.

I have always convinced myself,
that im actually a pretty nice guy.(not appearance =_=)
And i've always saying things like
"nice guy finish last" as an excuses to why things doesnt work out for me.
Im not as nice, as i tot i am.
Im not as nice as wad i claim to be.
Im just another asshole,
yes.
People would jus walk up to me and call me an asshole,
without myself know wad exactly i done wrong.

and, i have unknowingly,
come to a liking to someone.
whom i understand that things would not work out,
cos partially cos im a failure myself,
and im pretty much a useless person.
Not to mention, shes attached as well
She's by far one of those few girls that i would actually
get worried over. scare sth happen to her,
althou its positively over 99% safe ._.
such like those of wad like how parents get worried over their kid.
its a complex emotion, feeling
which i wouldnt bring it out with words.

I cant actually deny that i "like" her,
but den again, I had so much past experience of
falling in and out of such things,
and it nv last as long as i would claim of it to be. aka, my failure.

im not a nice guy,
im actually jus another selfish bastard.
yes. and im sorry for all the problem or issue,
that i have brought to you and your life.
gomenasai.

rawrs~!

2009-05-28T01:44:00.000-07:00

After neglecting the blog for a quite sometime >_>
i finally dig some time to post sth here =w=

[Quote]

Hi Wei Hau,

For the Adult Piano Course :

Registration Fee : $21.40

Course Fee : $74.90 per month for Level 1

Course Book : $24.00 for Level 1 (with CD)

For further enquiries, please select your convenient branch from our website www.ossia.edu.sg and call our branch staff there for all the informatinos you need.

Best Regards,

Raymond Wong
Ossia Music School

[Unquote]

Im so going to learn piano >_<
after waiting for so long..
althou ish onli 30mins >_>

Went to coscon last week
photos upload to flickrs~!
now working on my Mio photos xD

rah rah rah~~!

Emo,

2009-05-21T07:46:00.000-07:00

Im Emo, enuff said.

on the side note,
this makes me a little happier ,
but im still emo..

Too hard to title

2009-05-20T06:22:00.000-07:00

Incident 1 - Elitism
as it seems, not just me.
several over ppl else are starting talking abt
your "Elitism talk",
mind to, stop and think abt the things you're saying?

Incident 2 - Emo
Have been busy with work recently, dont ask me why,
jus that too much have been happening and i just cant stop myself from thinking :(
and flipping thru the papers today,
it kinda makes me emo to see University ads,
cos i actually dun have the chance to study in a university..
haish :(

Incident 3 - Stupid security guard
Some blardy idiot,
board the train at toa payoh,
and stop right infront of the door,
like wtf la! other ppl no need board one ar?!
den the stupid ah tiong behind keep saying
"prz go in" =w=

And and and and,
i couldnt remember wad i want to type liao :(

_____________________________________
added - -
Incident 4 - Not too sure myself thou,
i find it,
rather hard to get along with girls older than me,
needless to say,
they dun take want other ppl saying ,seriously.
:(
they jus think of me as another xiao hai zhi

Thank you!

2009-05-17T07:40:00.000-07:00

I would like to dedicate this post
to all the xmm that have been
letting me see
you know wad x.x
thank you very much!

sucks

2009-05-15T21:18:00.000-07:00

i guess the concert last nite pretty much want to rant abt this..

As much as i've been here (singapore) for the past 2 decades,
it pretty much hate it.
Reason being?
Im not singaporean.
so much things in my life,
has been made diffcult for myself becus of this.

After i've barely got use to secondary sch life,
my parents told me that we might be going back,
due to some immigrant issue.
which somewhere affect my school life,
my family and alot other things.

And wad does all this have to do with the concert last night?
as a matter in fact,
incase nobody knows,
i had always wanted to be a musician someday,
or rather be able to learn and perform certain instrument.
watching the performance yesterday,
make me ..
very xian mu they all :(
i've pretty much wasted my whole life on useless things,
and now my life's tied down by work,
and theres like nothing i could achieve anymore
oh well..
theres nothing i can do,
my life's alrdy pretty much over..

anyway..
the concert last nite was fantastic,
except the part there the piano sound seem to be all mashed together =/
and theres a few part towards the ending which seem to be
"off sync"?
x.x
mayb its jus me :(
hais..

if i were to ever get a chance to have a family of my own,
i'll definity tell them to follow their passion :(
dun be like me..
everything i do also kana suan by parents :(
haish..

Tonight

2009-05-14T21:55:00.000-07:00

Its,
tonight =w=

activate.

2009-05-12T09:04:00.001-07:00

Ninja mode,
activated.
duration - 1 week.

kthxbai

...

2009-05-12T08:46:00.000-07:00

HOW MANY FUCKING TIMES DO I HAVE TO REPEAT MYSELF? _|_?

champion

2009-05-10T08:27:00.000-07:00

Eh Champion, ask u do 1 freaking thing,
got so diffcult anot?!
smlj la. fuck u can? =w=
_______________________________

on the side note,
have a twisted angle from ytd's skating,
pain-ed butt and thigh from today's biking =w=
now whole body aching liao~
=w=

hur hur har hee!!

2009-05-08T11:12:00.001-07:00

\O
|\
/'\
\ \

O/
/|
/'\
/ /

hur hur har hee!! skating in the morning~!! <3

back from the bed

2009-05-05T09:36:00.000-07:00

I know i shud have been asleep by now,
but things jus keep going on
looping and looping and looping
in my head.
It felt as thou i wouldnt be able to sleep unless it get it out of me,
somewhere..
I couldnt get it out of my head.
I couldnt stop thinking.
of..
how much alike it was,
with someone else,
and that its like exactly the same thing is happening,
all over again.
I pretty much guess most ppl will think that it makes no sense,
well, i dun think it make any sense either.
and frankly speaking,
i do not know her at all..

I should learn to make up my mind
stop being indecisive
and face my own decision.

elitism talk

2009-05-05T09:09:00.000-07:00

Wads it with your elitism talk, dude?
wads wif you recently,
why are you purposely doing things to piss me off?
stop being a elite-wanna-be, kae?

wtf?

2009-05-05T08:45:00.000-07:00

why the fuck,
does someone.
have to piss me off,
every single night?

Fuck!

Hate

2009-05-04T08:41:00.001-07:00

My hatred for you,
got so bad,
that it has the power
to
turn off my sex drive.

Wow?! =w=

Side Note

2009-05-03T08:27:00.001-07:00

Ever notice why i get irritated and annoy easily?
here's something

You Win

2009-05-03T08:10:00.000-07:00

win liao..
you win liao..
you all win liao..

It all started back then,
i thou it's suppose to be a good thing, no?
Despite the fact that im a emo kid,
i think other else, i still pretty much get my things done..
PROPERLY.
And now, guess wad,
it already reach a point where im being outcasted already,
like.. wow?
why har?
WHY THE FUCK DID IT EVEN HAPPENED?!
Is it my fault for not raising my
discomfort, my anger, when i still could?
It happened too quick..
It happened too fast..
its just, less than 2 months?
I feel so terrible right now.
I feel so much to cry right now.
But..
What good will it do?
nothing,
My existance to you,
have already been long voided..

I need someone to talk to,
someone who can listen to all my rant,
someone who i can really pour my thoughts out to..

Battle of the century!

2009-05-02T07:11:00.000-07:00

God(uncle) Vs XMM03!
Who will win?!

my fault ,

2009-04-30T20:58:00.000-07:00

ah hur,
so now its become my fault la?
whos the one that disappear den become uncontactable?

I alrdy said lets go out on may day,
and nobody is bothered.
Oh well,
i shud learn to do things ALONE.

And now im all flare up with piss.

Yes, yes, I know. Im a blardy stupid idiot to even be brood over wad is alrdy deem as settle, over, useless to think any further. No matter wad i do wont change. But i just cant help but feel pissed over wad have happened.And IM STILL FUCKING PISSED ALL OVER IT, LIKE REALLI? K? THX BYE.

Be nice? fuck off dude

2009-04-25T00:21:00.000-07:00

hah,
Wad do you get for being nice?

before i start working on the photos, i want to rant it all out.

ah great. had plenty of fun at the arcade,
and saku call to ask for a macross shoot
last min shoot?
okie, not really much of a problem for me.
asked kippei along.

ok, im not realli sure asking him to join along is suppose to be "nice enuff to ask him to join along" thingy? but den again.
I jus asked anyway, without thinking much abt it.
Reached home, charge battery,
And the fucking battery does not power up my camera.
WOW, THANKS AR?

I was totally pissed out of my mind.
Wad did i ever do to deserve this?
Had my passion for macross not enuff?
when i finally get a chance to shoot,
this kind of crap happen to me?
and out of all things,
KIPPEI GETS TO GO. (Notice something here?)
I am pissed out of my mind, but what can i do?
I got emo-ed for abit, and i decided,
its not worth it. I fucking wan to shoot macross,
went all the way down to sim lim to buy a new battery,
jus for this shoot. wow, oh well.
At least i felt that its well spent money[before the shoot]
except for the fucking jam in town area,
cab fare killed me.

moving forward,
upon reaching T3,
i meet several other ppl whom,
i dun understand why they are there.
Not that i have any issue here.
and yeah, the shoot have not even began when i go thru all the freaking detour.
ok nvm.

moving forward,
the shoot?
its disastrous. Prolly for me only.
since the other photogs are in more favour with HER
i'm pissed that i dun even get the
basic respect as a photog.
yes,
i mayb be noob but then again,
can u even show some respect?
just a little bit? =w=
oh well,
at least
congragulation to you,
for being the first one ever,
to make it into my
black listed photography subject.

P.S.
If u really wan to show off to me with all those elitism stuff,
i'll suggest you fuck off, and go and die.
if you'd hate to see me so much,
JUST FUCKING HELL GO AND DIE,
HOKAY?
KTHXBAI!
AND,NOBODY ASKED YOU IN THE FIRST PLACE.

Know your place

2009-04-24T17:38:00.000-07:00

People, please know your place.
as in literally, know the place u live in.
i kinda getting irritated by ppl asking
"eh?how ar?i dunno lei?"
like freaking hell,
u stay Tampines, u dun even know which area come first.
in case none of the 3 of you notice,
the fucking,
retarded,
fucking bad attitude taxi driver,
have been taking a big detour after dropping xn,(infact,going thru via loyang seems like a detour to me)
i guess none of you know, hur?
i din realli wan to bother since
he didnt start his cab meter
until we somewhere in loyang =w=..

arr.. wadever..

dead

2009-04-24T17:36:00.000-07:00

he died in his attempt to seek attention.

rest in peace dude.

Its here!, but den?

2009-04-24T09:32:00.000-07:00

It's here,
pretty fast i'd say..

but den again.

Not as excited as i was before.. Im still prolly pissed all over by wad happened ytd.

fuck,
Fuck
FUCK!

damn it la..
knn D<

FUCK
IM SO PISSED THAT
SCREAMING MILLIONS OF FUCK INTO UR(S) DUMB EARS WILL NOT MAKE ME FUCKING FEEL ANY BETTER.

FUCK

Maybe..

2009-04-23T23:29:00.000-07:00

Mayb like wad someone told me..
i shoudnt get so attached ..
since..
everyone'll jus leave me one day.
and i'd
probably die alone somewhere..

fucking pissed

2009-04-23T09:04:00.000-07:00

Im so fucking pissed right now,
so fucking pissed that it hurt my balls.
fucking shit.
fuck you,
fuck you!
fuck every single one of you.

FUCK!

Fail

2009-04-21T08:28:00.000-07:00

I Fail,
Im a failure,
i shud prolly jus die and disappear from the surface of this Earth.

Its all starting to happen, all over again..

All is not lost

2009-04-20T10:31:00.000-07:00

Series of horrid events,

Machine rejecting my 10$ bills,
some stupid auntie blocking my way, and make me miss the train,
having to exit at city hall just to use the toilet Dx ..

but on the other hand,
had a rather "good" meeting with the bosses,
summoned within 1 day \(^o^)/
left work on time,

but the trip back home was horrid and tiring..
feel so terrible..
seems like i'd realli need the MC on tue x.x

On the bright side,
i finally found someone to go catch the orchestra performance together!
weee~~
*put $30 aside for the cd <3*

oh, i see

2009-04-19T20:03:00.000-07:00

oh, so now i've become another extra person

thanks ar..=_=

How?

2009-04-19T08:11:00.000-07:00

How the hell,
did i even convince myself,
that i have a chance
how?
now that i actually believe that i could do it
and eventually having it crushed
WTH?
and guess what?
You makes me feel like a
spare tire to you.
and all im good to you when you need help,
and other time,
im jus another nobody

What u trying to do?

2009-04-18T08:45:00.000-07:00

Woah champion,
what you trying to do?

Do you know?

2009-04-18T08:14:00.000-07:00

Do u know how,
how i feel when i looked at you?
a person whom i once tot, (Ok, mayb i think too much)
im once close to,
is now..
so ..
distant..
and i find it so hard talking to you.

sorry, I'm a person that reads too much into stuff,
i get oversensitive easily.

But how can you blame me,
when u first done all this to me.

yea, i prolly ain worth for you to even bother or anything,
he's prolly much better,
more mature,
better at handling stuff,
everything also way better den me.

yea, im jus another worthless emo kid,
leave me alone,
like u always did.

its not that i dont want,
but i jus fucking hate it,
when im suppose to be the one talking
and he's the one making the call.
no.
i dont like it.
and i .

ARGH FUCK!
IM STILL ALL OVER THIS SHIT.
FUCK!
FUCK U!

FUCKING JUS WALK AWAY QUIETLY LIKE U ALWAYS DID.

FUCK

_|_

Why do i bother?

2009-04-14T06:01:00.000-07:00

Why the hell do i even bother?
Why do i go there,
even knowing what awaits me..
even knowing that,
i will not like what im going to see.

I hate myself,
i hate my life.

I just another selfish pig.
I totally hate it.

Why do you have to give me false hope,
make me happy for nothing.
why do you have to pop out of nowhere.
it was originally abt me only,
why the hell did you even come into the picture?
why
the
fucking
hell
did
you
have to come in.
and make a leg out of it.
WHY D<
fuck!
Fuck!
FUCK!

and guess wad,
the sub one,
is more important to you
den the main one.
yes, Im a selfish kid,
and yes, Im fucking jealous and pissed off.

call here, call there,
everything also call.
end up is call him.
when,
im fucking,
suppose,
to
be
the
only one.
And things fucking move by itself,
without my acknowledgment.
All by itself.

Yes, Im dun wan to be related to you anymore,
i dun care anymore,
i dun WANT TO , anymore.

and i'd pretty much guess that it wun even make a diff to you.
argh FUCK!
WHY DO I EVEN BOTHER D<