I aint wad i tot i am. or wad i said i am.
I've reach the conclusion,
that i ain realli the person
who i claim to be.
neither the person i tot i am.
I have always convinced myself,
that im actually a pretty nice guy.(not appearance =_=)
And i've always saying things like
"nice guy finish last" as an excuses to why things doesnt work out for me.
Im not as nice, as i tot i am.
Im not as nice as wad i claim to be.
Im just another asshole,
yes.
People would jus walk up to me and call me an asshole,
without myself know wad exactly i done wrong.
and, i have unknowingly,
come to a liking to someone.
whom i understand that things would not work out,
cos partially cos im a failure myself,
and im pretty much a useless person.
Not to mention, shes attached as well
She's by far one of those few girls that i would actually
get worried over. scare sth happen to her,
althou its positively over 99% safe ._.
such like those of wad like how parents get worried over their kid.
its a complex emotion, feeling
which i wouldnt bring it out with words.
I cant actually deny that i "like" her,
but den again, I had so much past experience of
falling in and out of such things,
and it nv last as long as i would claim of it to be. aka, my failure.
im not a nice guy,
im actually jus another selfish bastard.
yes. and im sorry for all the problem or issue,
that i have brought to you and your life.
gomenasai.
the stickman ranted
at 9:26 AM